i am so overwhelmed. there are so many irons in the fire and every time i chip away at the ole to-do list, there is something else that comes to mind and freaks me out. i feel like i'm getting somewhere, and then i realize i'm way behind on something else and should be getting that done, and i panic.

i officially have 15 minutes left until my time is up and i have to go to the gym. i know the world will not stop turning if i don't get these things accomplished, but they are weighing on me.

there's a rehearsal tonight and i have only opened the music 3 times, only to be overwhelmed after 5 minutes of study. it's too hard and i care too little.

i'm even too overwhelmed to make breakfast for myself, because when i go in there, the fridge is full of stinky food that needs to be thrown away, and i need to go to the grocery store. i can't just go in there and make myself an egg without thinking that there is so much i need to do in just that room alone.

there's a class to prepare for and teach tomorrow, makeups to schedule, music to learn, a dress to hem, my place is a mess, there's laundry, and worst of all, i'm exhausted from the weekend of performing out of town.

how on earth do people have time for children? i could never do it. my hat is off to you, mommies.