my jane austen presentation was yesterday. REALLY glad it's over. and they loved it, thank goodness, and it did go well. i didn't feel the kind of relief i wanted to feel afterward, though. had a quick drink with a couple people and ran to chorale rehearsal. i get there and, no offense to these poor ladies, but there were two sopranos who were sick and were sitting out. so there was more pressure on the remaining four to be perfect. it seems thankless that i work so hard on a program, present it, sing and accompany myself, and then i have to go to a rehearsal full of people who really are my musical family, and no one even knows about the performance, or what i just did to my voice for the last few hours. can i just get a little bit of "sarah just performed, so we shouldn't expect too much from her." or "here, sarah, do you need to lie down for this rehearsal?" ha ha. just kidding, but seriously, it feels like no one cares sometimes. which brings me to some awkward questions that i have always wanted to ask: how do you self-promote without the shameless part? you always hear the two words "shameless" and "self-promotion" together, but all i want to do is let people know what's going on in my life, and that it's really exciting. how do you share your achievements or your stresses or milestones with friends, without sounding self-absorbed? if a tree falls in the woods, does it get any applause? :) i feel so uncomfortable with this subject that i feel like deleting all of the above. and i also don't feel like teaching today for 7 hours. that's for sure. talk about a group of people in my life who have no idea what's going on.