i've been horribly dreading writing a test i am giving in tomorrow's french diction class. i mean, really dreading it. fretting, worrying, wanting to hide from it. and now i just wrote it and it took me all of thirty minutes. why on earth would i waste my joy for two days on something that just took so little time, and maybe some concentration, but not that much. honestly, i think something happened to my brain after all those years of school and learning difficult coloratura arias. i have become quite incapable of just putting my mind to something and getting it done, without acting like a 2 year-old, kicking and screaming and needing a lollipop after.

what on earth?