the ringing is going away! i have told several of my friends that i honestly think this was God's little alarm in my ear, telling me to slow down. i have slowed down and have stopped stressing and running around like a crazy person. i have forced myself to become "boring" in all social settings, where i would normally pick up the slack for people less jovial and socially over-the-top. i.e. voice lessons. awkward young teenagers produce an uncomfortable dynamic, that is, unless you perform a 30-minute circus act during their lessons. i'm not doing that anymore. i've even had people ask if i was okay. why? because i'm not blowing personality bubbles around you all the time?

am i making any sense? probably not, but i understand me, so i guess that's all i can do.

every time i get worked up and work too long, or sleep to little, hello little morse code mouse in my ear! when i calm down and rest, it subsides. this could be high blood pressure. but i've always had very low blood pressure, and i've had it checked recently. it could also be some neck problems, which i am going to see a chiropractor to figure out.

but in the end, a terrible possible life-sentence (tinnitus) has turned into a wonderful internal gauge, to make sure i am not pushing myself to the brink of stress every day. and i was. oh boy, was i. time to get off that train.