morning pages

i have to get back into writing every day. it makes me sane. saner. ooh! saner is a word? i had no idea! i didn't get a little squiggly line after i wrote it, telling me i had a typo. anyway, writing every morning gets all the kinks out and clears the worries and those little nagging anxieties that hide in the corners of your brain. and you wonder why you can't get anything done because you feel so unfocused but you don't know why. well, that's usually why.
it's 8:48 on tuesday morning, and i have until 3:00 to do whatever i want. i am thrilled to have some time to myself. sam will be at work all day and i can just focus on my things.
school starts next week for everyone and i can go back to my school year routine. teaching later and having more time to myself. also, having a LOT more on my plate. but that's okay. if i can take the rest of this month and organize for the whole year, i will do just fine. there is a lot of music to learn, but as long as i have it all in a binder, ready to go, i can practice a lot more. and the pixy wagon meals will already be planned out a month in advance. this is important too. it seems like a lot of work, but i'm feeling really good about it. i'm actually much more worried about the long teaching days. but the extra money will help tremendously, and i will feel some freedom to take time off when i need to.
i definitely spent some money this summer and i feel good about taking on any and every money making project at this point.
is this the year of the locusts? is it still every seven years? or do we get these bugs every year now? i live in an area with a lot of trees, so i'm hearing them more than before, and they are kind of driving me crazy. it's so hot out and it's august and they sound like sirens to me. like anxious, expectant, "here comes fall so get it together" calls. interesting.
that's all for now. is anyone reading this blog anymore?