I HAVE AN ANONYMOUS REEEEEEADER!!!! wow! so cool! i feel so special! anonymous reader and commenter: please don't tell me who you are. you are probably my mother, disguising herself as another reader. or my boyfriend, checking to make sure i'm not writing things he disapproves of.

like that dangling participle ~ he would be so upset with me.

anyway, don't tell me who you are. not knowing who you are inspires me to be more profound and more prolific. like OMG! this is so haaaaard!

well, i happen to have a very profound story to tell, and then a recipe.

it's all about balance.

i went to the movie "eat pray love" on friday and i loved it. it was understatedly special. like if you haven't read the book you might be a little disappointed. that's perfect because you should read the book. it's lovely. it might not also be that awe inspiring to you if you've never had a bad relationship or have never traveled. or have never wanted to travel. who on earth would that be, you ask? well, there are people. there are people who have never left their home towns and don't plan on it either. and while my wanderlust has definitely subsided, i still melt when i see any movie set in another land, especially the ones i have visited. can't help it.

so, all that to say ~ i picked up the book again, to reacquaint myself. when i read this book, i was going through a divorce, was dating a guy who's heart was always just beyond reach, and i was painfully lonely. happily lonely sometimes as well. but i had so much to give someone. and no takers.

i poured a bath midday on a sunday and opened up the book. while reading the first chapter, a piece of paper slipped out of the back of the book and landed in my bath water. it was an old business card of mine, with my old address, which made so many memories flood back. i flipped it over and there was a note written on the back. a note written by the afore-mentioned boyfriend who's heart was just out of reach? the note mentioned something about thanking me for mending his sweater. ewwww. i cannot believe i would ever give my heart to someone who couldn't give theirs to me. why would i waste my time, let alone mend his sweater for him?

because that's what you do when you are trying. trying to make it work. throwing the fishing line out there and just seeing what will come up.

quick words of wisdom, ladies: if he wants to give you his heart, he will. if he's holding back and hesitating, GO AWAY. wait for someone who can't wait to call you. you think you won't find a guy that'll feel that way about you? of course you don't. you're too busy trying to get the unavailable to like you. that's full-time job, chica. move on.

back to the story.

then ~ something ELSE fell out. an old ticket stub for a flight to denver. i think it was an audition. i don't honestly remember. but i do remember flying all the time. always putting a flight on my credit card, to sing a gig or try my luck with an audition. always going going going.

these two little memories were huge to me. i sat there in the bathtub, taking in such tangible reminders of where my life was headed just a few years ago. it was lonely and confusing and i hated singing. it had such negativity to me.

now i'm in love and happy and stressed because i have so much in my life that i almost can't handle all of the good. good stress. still stress. but good stress.

UGH! okay, here's that recipe...

LIFE-CHANGING SALSA VERDE
tomatillos
white onion
garlic
poblano peppers
rub it all down with a little olive oil and roast it in the oven until a little brown.
let cool and throw in the food processor, with a dash of vinegar, salt, pepper, cilantro and lime juice. probably cumin too.
it is so creamy and delish. i think you could do anything with this. you could put it on top of grilled chicken, or mix with tuna for a spicy tuna salad. or you can make a great black bean soup with it. i don't know. i could drink the stuff.

and salsa makes you drink more water! it makes you drink other things faster too. so be careful. :)

anonymous reader requesting healthy recipes ~ i will definitely start putting recipes on here! i have so many.

and to my friend stephanie: i'm so glad to see you on here! did you move? i heard that you moved. i hope that's a rumor.

having a little pool party/bbq tonight. last sunday of summer. i'm ready.