DAY OFF

two humdrum three-letter words, that, when put together in the correct order, become music to my ears.
to me, every day that is not a day off, in my opinion, is just an OFF DAY.
of course, i'm kidding. i work hard and enjoy my work. i guess i just get tired of being "on". singing well, being confident, never questioning my talent, when i feel like questioning it all day long. and then there's teaching ~ diagnosing student after student, concocting the perfect prescription of therapy and technique to make them become better singers, when most of them could just practice during the week and come up with the same results.
ugh.
i think that's why i have become more and more drawn to writing. the quiet and introversion of it. no one there to question me, no one needing to even understand what i'm trying to say. i can even write something really ridiculous, and poof, i can just delete it and pretend it never occurred to me.
i like that.
anyway, it's a lovely day off. tons of music to learn, but not ready to open it. still have to teach, but just for an hour. even that gives me heartburn. i just want to be quiet. i want to enjoy the birds outside and the breeze coming through my windows, sending fresh air through my whole apartment, calming me.
i am clinging to every single hour, begging it to not go too quickly. tomorrow is such a huge day and i'm not rested enough to face it. the only remedy i have when i get this way is to make a list. a list of future fun to come.
LIST OF FUTURE FUN TO COME:
1. summer is almost here!
2. awesome bf coming over tonight. going to make broccoli/cheese/rice soup in my new awesome kitchen, memorize elijah and watch movies with awesome bf. a REAL friday night.
3. students who just had lessons were fantastic! and grateful.
4. the weather is just gorgeous today. perfect, really.
5. got my haircut and it is adorable. great hair makes me so happy.
6. i feel good about pretty much everything right now. that's awesome.
7. last but definitely not least ~ i think a glass of red wine is in my near future.
i know my list should have items like, "God is so good" and "i'm so lucky to have a great family and great loved ones", but i expect those to be there all the time and am always grateful for those. those thoughts are so ingrained in my bones that i have never and will never feel any differently. what really boosts my mood is the small things.
besides, isn't the peace i feel from this breeze coming through my window, really God making Himself present to me?