merry christmas!!!!!

it's two days after the big day and still snowing! and the danger of the exhausting four-hour drive from kc to jeff city on christmas day has not weakened my love for winter weather.

i asked for a lot of snow this winter. i just needed it. i needed a blanket of fresh white to wipe the slate of this year clean. not that it has been a bad year. just a full year. a lot of change, a lot of new chapters. but the snow outside is slowing my heartrate down and forcing me to sleep, eat, and veg. i'm holding my precious little niece lexie a lot and rolling around on the floor with my precocious niece avery. they are so much fun!!! i never noticed that precious and precocious are so close. not sure if i'm spelling it right, but too lazy to find out.

i wished for snow because i already have everything else i need. i feel content and satisfied with my life. of course, there is always the desire to make it better. but that doesn't mean i'm not content. i'm both. i have such dreams, but those dreams make my present feel brighter and more alive. they don't make me impatient and strung out.

i wish we women talked more about that part of aging, rather than complain about wrinkles and gray hair. i'm 36 and starting to feel so comfortable in my own skin. i feel beautiful, even though i'm totally out of shape. i mean totally. i'm about to lose my entire wardrobe if i'm not careful. so the working out will commence very soon, just for the purpose of keeping my cute clothes! HA!

okay, obviously i have nothing profound to say. it's almost 2pm and i'm still in my flannel pj pants and rockhurst high school hoodie. i just hope that whoever is reading this is getting a break from life as well. i feel like the days between christmas and new year's should be a blur ~ one day of relaxation bleeding into the next.