hurray for spring!

it is a beautiful day out there today!  sure, its 27 degrees, but supposed to be 57 by the end of it all!!!!  ladies, i think we finally made it out of the winter!  this was a long one for missouri/kansas people (texas girls, i have nothing to say to you right now).  i have struggled with this winter more than normal and i know you have too.  i think we will be rewarded with a gorgeous spring, don't you?  and isn't that the way it works anyway?  

i had a really rough week last week.  found out how much i ow in taxes and it ain't pretty.  then i had a therapy session that sent me crying all the way back to 1987 (approximately the year of my first boyfriend.  man i've doing this a long time.  can girl just get a husband?).  it turned my world upside-down.  but even though ignorance is truly bliss, knowledge is power.  and i'd rather have power than bliss any day.  

some day i hope to even those hormones out so much that i won't have those horrible weeks.  but i think God is trying to teach me something through these times and i'm so clouded during them at this point that i can't see Him.  it's like a 3 year-old who needs to sleep and is completely out of control and doesn't want to go to bed ~ the very thing that will make him feel better.  the mother knows to just put him in that bed and shut off the light and close the door.  he screams for a while, then passes out.  who knew?  the mother did.  God knows what i need during those hard times and i clearly don't at all.  maybe i'll grow out of my 3 year-old temper tantrums some day and learn what the cure is!

i sang in a memorial service yesterday afternoon.  it was very touching.  we sang "his eye is on the sparrow".  the very title makes me weep.  this is a great song to have on your "mean reds" list.  my girlfriend amy and i created a mean reds list one time.  it's not the blues ~ the reds.  way worse.  and usually you can soothe yourself with a few things while you're feeling the mean reds ~ like for instance...

1.   bubble bath

2.  a glass of wine

3.  an audrey hepburn movie!

4.  a walk

5.  brownies

you get the idea.  well, here are the words to "his eye is on the sparrow".  i think they're worthy of my mean reds list!

why should i feel discouraged

why should the shadows come

why should my heart be lonely

and long for heaven and home

when jesus is my portion?

my constant friend is he:

his eye is on the sparrow 

and i know he watches me.

i sing because i'm happy

i sing because i'm free

for his eye is on the sparrow

and i know he watches me.

now ladies, most of you are singers.  let's face it, we sing for money ~ not because we're happy or free.  but i think the opposite happens to me.  i sing, then i feel free and happy.  i'd like the words to go, "because i sing i'm happy, because i sing i'm free!!!!"

2nd verse:

let not your heart be troubled

his tender word i hear

and resting on his goodness

i lose my doubts and fears

through by the path he leadeth

but one step i may see

his eye is on the sparrow

and i know he watches me.

3rd verse:

whenever i am tempted

whenever clouds arise

when song gives place to sighing

when hope within me dies

i draw the closer to him

from care he sets me free

his eye is on the sparrow 

and i know he watches me!!!!