got up this morning at 7 and watched joycey (as my friend becky calls her!). she had an inspiring preacher on there who talked about growing up in his dad's successful church and being called at a very young age to start a church in inner city L.A.
this guy admitted that he was afraid all the time when he first got started, but that didn't mean God was trying to tell him to give up or leave. joyce said that a phrase she likes to use is "DO IT AFRAID". she said that God never told us we couldn't tremble or shake or sweat. why run from something just because we're scared? what ~ are we going to die? is anyone actually scared to death?
i immediately think of auditions. fellow opera singers, you can probably smell the nola sound studios in new york city, just by thinking about it. this is the audition hub. 500 singers packed into a hallway on the 17th-ish floor of a nasty old building. boobs and attitude flying every which way. it's hard enough to just do the stinking audition, but the real lion's den is in the hallway! am i right ladies?
but what's so awful about being afraid? or embarrassed or uncomfortable? i don't think my feelings are fear when i'm auditioning. maybe the fear of being rejected, but that's par for the course. no matter what that icky emotion is that comes over me when i'm waiting for my turn to sing, surely i can handle it for one hour. but can i handle spending my whole life thinking, "i coulda done that..."???
anyway, i like joyce's idea. just let yourself keep going, no matter how scared you are. if you know it's the will of God, He'll protect you. But He won't necessarily always take away your fear. I mean, we are human beings, right?
i hope this brings you the same type of strength it brought me this morning!!!! have a great week and don't forget to comment on my blog!!!!!
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i'm really dealing with fear this morning, and was last night. i don't like my overly-busy schedule ~ constantly teaching and driving to ten locations to teach and so on. i want to sing for a living instead and am afraid that i won't be lucky enough to do that. it takes extreme talent, hard work and lots of luck. i read something last night in my yoga journal, but i still can't get this to wash over my fear...
"COURAGE RESTS ON A PROFOUND TRUST IN SOMETHING GREATER THAN YOUR ABILITIES."
once i get that to kick in, my heart won't feel so tight and it won't be so hard to breathe, which is the the bodily response i have to fear. does anyone out there have a different physical response they'd like to share?
so cool.
opera mom, i logged onto your pretty blog and it looks like you haven't blogged since late september! you must be so busy, you poor thing! i just wanted to encourage you to write because you always have such a great outlook and take on life. i love your blogs and i love when you comment on mine!!!! xoxo
thanks a bunch! i just check your's and my bro's every night. did you hear that pearl jeden died?
i love that you check mine every night! that's so sweet! motivates me to write more on it! i did hear about pearl. dr. muchnik called me. i'm still in shock. they're having a memorial service for her in march. i'm going to try to get down there. i just can't believe it.
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